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Sunday, October 09, 2005

Today

today started off pretty bad.
tiredness kinda killed my enthusiasm.
wasn't feeling all too good.
moodswings?
maybe.
just felt tired, unsettled, a little unhappy, rather cranky... etc.
guess teh chao chao, clara and brother bear would kinda understand what i'm talking about.
bah. it's just not good.
i don't even know why i'm so tireedd!!
but anyhow,
got to church about 5 minutes late.
worship practice.
couldn't really remember my stuff.
stood there and was thinking about the harmonizing bit.
and i could remember.
so i just sang the melody.
service was better.
i prayed and focused on God and i told Him that i wanted to praise Him and worship Him even at this point in time.
after service,
pam gave me a little surprise. (:
yummy... something.
i don't even know what it was!
hurhur.
but it was nice.
i shared the half with chua.
we liked it! (:
(hurhur, i didn't even ask chua if she liked it, but i know she would!)
walked chua out. i like chua.
saw pam walking out of church.
called her.
and we kinda ran to each other and hugged each other.
then we said byebye! and she left.
bah.
anyway, pamy! i heard you went for cell! (: i'm so happy for you! (: YAY! (:
had evaluation.
met timmy.
had lunch with timmy.
BAKERZINN!
yum.
i really love baker's inn.
warm chocolate cake...
and yummy pasta.
it was good talking to timmy.
catching up's always good.
we were talking about studies, attachments, life, brothers, our future, husbands/wives, kids, labour, what we'll be like when we're 42 years old...
and our grand plan.
hurhur.
when we're 42,
and if we're rich.
we'll go on a family holiday.
he'll bring his family & i'll bring my family,
and 2 big families will all go somewhere cold with snow,
and have a nice holiday.
and when we're 42,
we'll go bakerzinn and have warm chocolate cake,
and reminisce about what we talked about when we were 18/19.
he'll have 3 or 4 kids (poor wife!)
and i'll have 2/3 kids (if i dare)
and i'll have a clean and hygienic husband,
who bathes at least once a day,
who uses soap, shampoo, facial foam, and moisturizer's an added bonus (if he does, that's if).
and he'll have a wife who loves him as much as he loves her.
darn it.
why does my future husband sound so simple.
hmm oh well.
i've got many other prerequisites.
guess i'll never get married.
since if i'm going aussie to study (if).
i probably won't be back and settle down in singapore til i'm 26/27 years old.
which means, i won't get married til i'm 30
and i won't get my kids early.
and i won't get my government rebate!
ok alright enough of that.
so anyway, i met jia and sixiu later.
study was good!
we did a timed math paper.
it's good to study with them
cause we force ourselves to sit down and do work for 3 hours straight.
it's endurance and discipline i guess.
pretty happy.
anyway.
had prata with brother at home.
today wasn't that bad anymore.
friends and brothers do make your day much better.
thank God for good friends and a lovely brother.

[ Jude whispered ][ 8:34 PM ]

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